Appreciate your fortunate life

when i look for peace,
i find it in many places.
in the western sky,
or a quiet forest.

when i seek comfort,
i need not venture far.
it is my back against a tree,
and the strings of my guitar.

if i feel despair,
it is only fleeting.
my heart gives me hope,
and my peers pick me up.

when there is darkness,
i shine from within.
the soul will heal,
if i believe it can.

but when the weight of this fragile world
falls upon me in my despair, how will i cope?
will i thrash and cry out, as i fall to earth?

could some deviate take away my purity,
leaving me to choke on the carbon air?
would i end up wandering a concrete jungle,
confused and drugged, with nowhere to turn?

is there a threshold of innocence,
that once crossed is the end of normailty,
and how easy would it be to lose my sanity?

when i consider the ugliness,
the darkness and the grit of immorality
i wonder..

i think about the ups and downs of my life.
how far down have i been,
and how far down can i still go?

i only hope that if a times comes
that i am in utter darkness and lost,
that i can be strong enough
to carry that weight.